shadowsboy2005

19 November 2007 @ 11:54 pm

ouuuuuuu

so these days, whats been happenning is welll there alot. im completely into this girl myriam. were together but not yet dating she wants me to ask her in person. she makes me feel so happy and wanted you guys dont even know.lost a friendship in the process but epople dont judge pleas you gusy dont know the hole sotry..so it doesnt matter. eccept des, amber/ jenkins/ hard/ball/tim lol anyways im so tired im going to bed now but yes this girl has something in her that i havent seen recently.hmm hi des im sorry i have nothing els to say...oh yeah guys des deserves what she wants ... shes a good girl and doesnt seem to get anything in return. so help her out ..omg im tired byebye

Current Location: room

Current Mood: amazing

Current Music: snoop dogg

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03 October 2007 @ 10:42 pm

cant wait//and tonight

ok first of all i have to say i cant wait to go to the sue or espo...i really want to go and have lots of funn haha i want people to go with me haa im alud to have the truck haha i really want to go..../////////anyways tonight i asked if i could have the van and i got to me and pitre drove to the turn off and back then tim hortons then put gas in the van then whent to the look out tower and got stocked by a truck scary..... hah aanyways drove to the dump to look at the stars and it wa greatt i had a really good timee.....i really am looking for a girlfriend cause i really want somebody to share those moments with you know i miss and amost forget that feeling aww,,,man oh well ill keep on trucken i guess waiting for that perfect girl to walk in front of me hha yeah like that will happen haa okok wwell im gona go ttyl everybody call me or talk to me guys haha miss yall bybeybey

MICHAEL BROWNE

Current Location: my room

Current Mood:

good

Current Music: chris brown

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27 September 2007 @ 07:30 pm

me

so for the past 3 days ive been working at canadian tire and its been really good i know how to replace all new tires rims and how to do oil changes and thngs its really cool.......ha yeah today well everyday i come home and im realy tired i always want to go to bed but instead i just go to the computer and talk to a hole bunch off people...hah man i miss my boys in t-hood on cypress and juniper aww man i miss them .......wellll the girl issues on me are very simple i wont know anythng until monday cause im getting info from her best friend..hahah yeah well im so bored haha i want to chill sometime girls.. you me candles seriously give me a call sometime.......haha okok well i wont waste your time and bore you anymore...good bye dark contenant we love you.

MIChAEL BROWNE

Current Location: my room

Current Mood: gangsta

Current Music: 50 cent,,..ciara

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24 September 2007 @ 07:00 pm

ohh mann

so im back and im doing good i start my c.t job tommorow plus aww man i gona gets in the cash everybody hah yeah im rollin in it ahah this chick im goin for she knows i like her now but she just blushes hahah she soo cute ima gona get her i cant wait ....and just to clarify i was over amber like a long fricken time ago check the dates yo haha dats wut im takin about hahah anyways i won the lottery today to haa i gots 150 dollars suckaas haha im 18 in 30 days
haha cant wait gona get smashed on 100% pure orange juice form concentrate hhahah yeah eyah ok well theres nothing really else to say...:D:D:D:D:DD:D:Dloves you all hi amy hi des hi who ever else

Current Location: home yo

Current Mood: gangsta

Current Music: 50 cent - i get money

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20 September 2007 @ 06:23 pm

for des

des this journal is for you..........ok so i like this girl and she is so my type i mean like rreally my type better than any girl..im not gona say the name because i dont want anyone knowing accept des.but thats beside the point ..anyways shes my age, blonde hair blue eyes and friggen FINEEE AS CRAP. oh man let me tell you ive liked her so much since the begining of grade eleven and aww man i can see my self with her you dont eve know.....me and her flirt soo much its awsome....but anyways aw man today was okay i had some good points and i had somebad points in the day the good points were me and my crush and the bad poiints well nvm mind them im trying to stay happy... man des let me tell you i really think im gonna ask this girl out ...we played poker witch she love and i love and she likes the music i do ..welll some ahah and she soo funny this girl makes me laugh more than any other....aww man i could see this going far you know i really want it to happen but i have to wait becuase shes soo well i know how she is and i know i have to wait and see but i will very soon..(L)(L)(K) well im goan go now haha oh and i gots a job at canadian tire

Current Location: sises room

Current Mood: soso

Current Music: 50 cent

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07 September 2007 @ 10:11 pm

Lonelyness and Nothingness

this is something ive been feeling for a while maybe for like the past week or so and i really hate it....ive been feeling lonelyness and i know for a fact that there is not one girl out there that likes me at all in that way ....but ....idk im really feeling depresssed these couple of days and its like when im with all my friends and things i have fun and everything but i feel completely empty but when im alone walking or doing something that is when i feel less pain and im really happy at that point but i know what i need and i need it more than anything.... does anyone understand me at all.......ok well im gona go i guess .......................btw amber if you ever read this can you ...nvm ....it turns out the same anyway .......miss your voice in my ears and your face infront of me.....!! talk to me (L)

Current Location: sisters room

Current Mood: dying

Current Music: w.e

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05 September 2007 @ 03:51 pm

today and something else

today was good i guess i just went to school and went to my class and everything wuss cooll....but now im just releaved that its over for today..aww i still havent got my pay check and i really want it so i can go buy sstufff for awww man me and my mom just got in a fight gease i fricken hate this right when im all happey and crap and then somthing just has to happen ay...well this journal again is for des i mean she forces me to write one aaand im like no des then she pulls out her sweat talkin so then im like fine des jsut for you hahh aww man des or amber never said hi or bye at schooll they never do but actually me and des nodded heads haah but amber never does it kinda hurts me but i guess thats just how she is i mean shes like my closest friend and she doesnt talk to me unless she needs me for something i mean i cant remember the last time she came on line and said i want to hang out with you....btu it doesnt matter i live with it you know ahah man im really tired and really hungry gease ooh and by the way evrybody i need a date for next saturday not this one coming up but the next ahah ok everybody ttyl

michael Browne niggs

Current Location: sisters room

Current Mood: pissed

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28 August 2007 @ 02:14 pm

TODAY

heyhey everybody this is me agian...hows it going people well me and amber seem to be having are little arguments but im all good she still my bestest friend and crap though i dont know wut she thiinks though but anyways back to my life hha this journal is basicaly for des because i barley do this and she wants me to do this haha shes coool shes cool...so my life is okay hahh i got my boys my girls my famm hah aww man i wish i had my hair back you know the girls loved it hah so yeah im single and it suckx i need to go girl hunting and i need some help so im gona get some recruites ahh ok well if sombody wants me to say more tel me on msn!!!

Current Location: my sises room

Current Mood:

mellow

Current Music: chris brown

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23 August 2007 @ 04:42 am

y arent dreams real

ok me and amber have some weird nights sometimes we chill for the day and then when night time comes around i go to drop her off.and we chit chat you know then it would get cold so she would invite me in and im thinking nothing of it im like ok you know so w.e anyways i go in her room with her and still you know everything is good and stuff so we watch charmed or somthing and we both lay in her bed because theres nowhere else to sit haha so anyways sometimmes when i watch the show with her i turn and look at her because im used to that you know and then i see her face she looks back a me..now i dont know bout her but imedetly start thinking of what should really happen or sorryy what would of happened haha i start thinking of kissing her..holding her..rubbing her arms and talking to her bout life....i miss that so much..sometimes i cry and think and think and think about wat did i do wrong to make her not want to be with me anymore welll im not sure what i did but immm SORRY and i cant change the past but certainly make up for the future but maybe i dont have a future...i mean amber was the only girl ive ever fell in love with and she knows it... i wish i could snap my fingers and nnothing would have never happpened..but life isnt like that ....i still love her with all my heart...its weird and my friends tell me this...after everything she has done i stiill love her and wont let go maybe thats a sign maybe not but y do i stay and wait for her...its because there noone like her out there for me...sure there might be some girls that i would like but not like ambs i say this from the bottom of my heart...y arent dreams real

Current Location: pitres

Current Mood: sad

Current Music: somthing i dunno

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22 August 2007 @ 06:01 am

lyrics to "lips of red whine"

this is just what i got so far

scared i feel, ill get down and kneel
to beg for you to take me back
temptations when i wake up
this feeling i cant stop
to break out in tears
i want you to trust me when i say i love you back
i need for you to be there when my emotions are lack
your lips of red whine..they take my pain
youve suffered enough just drive away
drunken when i kiss you... baby you know
you dont go to faast or you dont go to slow

tellll me what you guys think ayuuu

Current Location: home

Current Mood: musical

Current Music: none

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22 August 2007 @ 05:44 am

dumm

hey everybody its me ok so this is whats going on in my head..see i really dont care what anyone says im still in love with amber..even though she may not feel that way for me i do for her..but w.e..i dont even know why i feel like this..today me, ambs , pitre went and had a fire it really seemed like amber never had fun at all..but ok..so also i had an ok day i mean huh im reallly confused of what is happening in my life one thing is said another thing is said about me and amber i mean i dont know what i want anymore... im really confused...i want something i clearly cant have..haha but huh man...im actually pretty sad inside but i hide my most inner feelings ..bettcha nobody new that hahha ...i need to talk about things with somebody i just need soembody to listen and give me there opinion i need somebody..ok well ill talk later ..ttyyl des call me

Current Location: home

Current Mood: a mike mood

Current Music: m&m

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09 August 2007 @ 08:50 am

bored

man last night me and pitre huh ...walked around town alll night it was sooo cold alls we talked about the hole time is how much i care about amber and how much he cares for his girll well that and some other stuff but awww man im so bored

Current Location: pitres

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09 August 2007 @ 06:31 am

misunderstood

so everybody as you guys know i still really love amber.. but w.e right i mean..i know she's with B-ron but i mean the conversations we have are totally straight up like we addmit things to eachother all the time i mean its pretty cool how she can still addmit shes inlove with me and stuuf like that well i mean she deosnt sayy it but i know her hints and the way the speaks and looks at me...i mean we ...well i constantly flirt i mean thats just who i am haha i love give me one reason besides bron why i should want her...i know amy and im guessing deszs to care bout me and dont want me getting hurt AGAIN but ..put yourself in my position your madly inlove with somebody and they love you back but there with someone else who doesnt deserve him/her so you want them you know well thats all got to say so ttygl byebey

Current Location: pitres

Current Mood: opinionated

Current Music: jimmy hendricks

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06 August 2007 @ 12:43 pm

im happy bout this

hey everybody so yesterday i got home like 1:10am and i saw amber in my room with my mom anyways she was just having problems that i cant say on tv so i gave her a hug and she seemed to be calm down and stuff so we talked for about 10 mins then i dropped her off at her house and then we taled for like an hour or two then i went home then i hit the sack i was so tired because earlier jordan took me and pitre out driving and it was fun and stuff but i was afraid for my life becaue well hello its jordan at the wheeel and we al know how qcumbers are at driving ....ecellent....but jordan isnt well hes good and all but everytime a hot chick walked by were all starring at her then we noticed the vans moving over to and im liek were dead but jordan saved us by turning the wheel haha i love that guy but anywho that what happened yesterday besides me hanging with my girl amberr and my boy T foy so it went well but thats all i got so ttyl everybody meqning des amy amber because your the only guys who read this shahaa ttyl love ya all.(L)(H)

Current Location: home

Current Mood: sexual

Current Music: keith urban

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05 August 2007 @ 06:41 pm

why do i keeeep hurting

i really dont know why i keep hurting over her.. she says she loves her bf and she says shes still in love with me so wut do i do i just dont get it the more i talk to her the more i see her the more i want to get close to her but i cant its very wrong my if it continues i might do somthing i regret like move in on her.. now not to say shell do it back but i just need someone to tell me what to do..

Current Location: home yo

Current Mood:

crushed

Current Music: chris brown gimme dat

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04 August 2007 @ 01:06 pm

hey every body kk yesterday danny freakkeed at me just because i told amber danny was so pisseed that amber wanted brian over me and i was like dudde calm the !@#$%^^&&* down so wateva but in other news i got new cloths des totally pimped me out hahhaa made me looookeeed goodd anyways im still styling.. so im girl hunting again everrray budday yeah and its not goin soo goodd theeeerreeees nobody in this town thats want me and i know it but w.e man i hungry i saw transvestigh.. i meean transformers at the theatre yesterday it was good alright i have to gooo ttyll everybody ill enter another one later

Current Location: my sisters room

Current Mood: gangsta

Current Music: stilll 50 centtt homies

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01 August 2007 @ 12:09 pm

a day in the life of michael

so today was pretty good i was on the computer then i went to work and if i might add i was looking pretty sexy all sweaty with cut graass all over me.. anyways after i got off work i figured out my check is 244 $$$ haha its so cool im rich i want to take the qcumbers out for supper and a movie but then i saw des so i figured i would ask her on a date but then she told me shes goin camping so that turned out wrong but ohh well hahhaa sorry if that affended you zack attack... hah anyways in recent news i broke up with amber because shes inlove with him still.. yeah sooo... so des is pretty cool everytime i ask her to hang out with me she cant ... but there will be a time
hahhahah but anyways i also found out that my sister smokes pot and drinks that really suxx i love her very much and dont want her falling in to that. bad frinds spoil youthful habbits... aww man i wish she could go back to be my old sister who respected and looked up to me but...haha i miss her for who she couuld be... ok well thats my first live journall peace out qcumbers for life.... i hope you happy desss

Current Location: e-dot

Current Mood:

complacent

Current Music: 50 cent

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